Wow , this hits home for me , the whole not talking about it because I'm a man thing . I have issues that are incurable or not treatable , IMO . I get depressed , but mostly I beat myself up over stuff I regret doing in my past , or just my past . Laying in bed at night they hit me like a punch , I actually flinch , the wife thinks it funny when I do it , but she doesn't understand why I do it . She has tried to get me to go to counseling for my depression , but I won't go , and I won't ever go . My troubles are mine , I own them .
I don't want to be happy from a pill .
I've watched my brother and friends take antidepressants become a totally different person , and not for the better . They forget the things they've done and become vapid and shallow , IMO .
I've dealt with my mind my whole life and I'm better now than ever . I never lose my temper and refuse to talk when I'm mad about something , I wait till I'm calm and can talk about it rationally . Plus , I know when I'm depressed and don't make any decisions when I am .
Funny though , how we automatically reply when greeting someone .
They say "How are you today ?" and your reply is automatic - "I'm good , how are you ?"
No one cares or wants to hear your troubles . If you replied "I'm thinking about suicide daily , thanks for asking " , they'd say "Well good luck with that" and keep walking .
This is not a cry for help or a poor poor me post , just that I have a different take on the topic and thought I'd share it . We all have troubles and we deal with it the best way we know how , or with what works .
Also , I don't mean to insult or demean anybody else's choices , what works for you is great .
In the words of Red Green , "Keep your stick on the ice and I'll be pulling for Ya"